A Decade of Living

For the past decade, I've been locked away
Forgetting how to live each and every day.

And yet I believed I was living my life,
But rather I lived in a virtuous strife.

It beat me down as the tunnel closed in;
My lens grew thin, my mind begun to spin.

I couldn’t recall how to see the light;
I only drifted in a terrifying flight.

Demons ravaged every corner of my brain
Like a train slipping past her main:

Slipping the line until she collides
– Everyone on board is no longer alive.

A decade of living is what I thought I saw;
A decade of dying is what I just recalled.

A Decade of Living by K. Saitta © 2015, A Walk In Verse

A New Year

A new year and a new day;
   time to pursue today
   with a new mind,
   that is positive each day.
Negative dismay;
   replaced with encouragement
       … each and every day.

A New Year by K. Saitta © 2016, A Walk In Verse

Peace

white dove;
eternal peace
flowing upon us all;
tranquility enters our hearts
     - world peace

Peace by K. Saitta © 2014, A Walk In Verse

Eating Disorders

Your obese and I'm too thin,
self-control is our biggest sin.

You see hunger,
I see greed,
And yet we both suffer
from the same maladies;
Self perception is our disease,
for what we see, is not reality;
it strips away our humanity
leaving the real possibility
of our families standing by
our gravesides - weeping.

Why? Because of our rage
set from the worlds cruel ways
of torture and pain
they laid, on us daily;
     the names,
     the lies,
     the beatings
we took:
     leaving us feeling worthless,
     less then a human being
     worthy of love
          - from none.

And with this rage,
it has decayed our visual way
of seeing who we are;
     our rage
     has turned to obsession
     of feast or famine,
     and either way,
     if we cant cease this pain
     we shall both fade
     into the grave.

So please, let us pray,
to cease internalizing our pain;
     the agony inside,
     and rather live our lives
     without turning to our demise
     with our obsessions.

For we will survive
once we realize
we are beautiful
     - they way we are -
no matter what are scars;
     for between you and me
     it is love that we need,
     to kill this obsessive disease
     that we face daily.

Eating Disorders by K. Saitta © 2014, A Walk In Verse

Find Their Way

Greatness comes from within,
From mighty men born into sin.
They find their way
In the Truth each day,
Wandering through
– Rivers of dismay.

Find Their Way by K. Saitta © 2009, A Walk In Verse

Emergency Room

Sitting and waiting in this room alone,
Cold and silent, with whispering moans:
Behind these curtains of tragedy,
I sit alone with unknown misery.

Test after test are becoming my norm
With nothing else left
Except these crippling tours,
Of another night spent
– In the emergency ward.

Beeps and tones are all that I dream
As I watch the monitors – green lights, serene.
Up and down goes the green line,
On the monitor, that's wasting my life.

I'm in a dream I wish to ignore,
I can't wake up from this ungodly war
As needles of hell cut my veins
Bringing me only torture and pain!

No cure obtained for what I endure,
Just piles of records with no known cures.
I need the answers in that which I seek,
So I can live my life and finally be free!

But as far as I know and am able to see
Hope is striped with each passing scene
As needles are pronged into my arms,
These needles of hell dealt me wrong!

All I want is to be back in my life,
Back on my feet, to run without strife!
Back to the days, I used to adore
As I'm tired of these curses, my body endures!

Please, please I sincerely do plead
No more emergency visits for me;
Sitting alone and brought to my knees,
Just find the cure, and let my soul be – Please!

Emergency Room by K. Saitta © 2009, A Walk In Verse

Meniere's Disease

Even as I stand tranquil,
I spin as on an open sea.
I slip with every step I make,
Life became a torture for me.

Continual ringing inside in mind,
Silence a dream I can no longer find.
Peace for me cannot be seen,
I struggle to keep my sanity.

I weep and pray each passing day
That these tears of sickness dry away.
I long to know the peace I knew
Before she took my will to do.

But now she's taken hold me
As she blinds and deafens my reality;
Conforming me to a man of old,
She eats away at my young soul!

She haunts with each tick of the clock,
Perpetual spirals - nonstop!
Like the tornado upon the sea
I awakening to terror, it's not a dream!

Meniere's Disease depart from me,
I beg and plead for my sanity!
Find compassion and hear my plea:
Give me back my serenity!

Meniere's Disease by K. Saitta © 2009, A Walk In Verse